After a long break, finally another post

Sorry it's been so long since my last post. It hasn't been a lack of things going on, but more like too much going on. Since my last post I had started to feel pretty lousy again. Fatigue had kicked into high gear and the dizziness and stumbling got quite bad again. After a few weeks of this we discovered that I am again expecting baby #4. Both Jeff & I were in a bit of shock as it's not exactly what we were thinking a month + after having brain surgery. Needless to say after the shock wore off we began to get excited. OK, it took me a little while as I had been feeling so very lousy. Thankfully the first trimester is over and the fatigue has gotten better. I still am stumbling quite a bit and some days I feel as if someone has just spun me in circles and I now have to function. I know that a lot of this is still recovery from my surgery, but I'm hoping it's just made worse by being pregnant and after this little bambino is born it'll all go back to normal.

So I have to admit to a real brain-wave moment that I had yesterday. Currently I'm in Calgary visiting Jeff (who just finished his West Jet coarse...yeah Honey!!!) . On the flight down here I got on the airplane and put on my headset for the video system. I was so annoyed since before I left the house, the headset I grabbed had 1 side of the earpiece not working. I fiddled with it for a while and tapped it, but couldn't get it to work. I actually took me about 1 1/2 minutes before I realized that the headset was working fine, it was my ear that wasn't working. I actually laughed out loud when I realized my mistake prompting the woman next to me to ask what was so funny. I actually thought of answering her, but then realized there was likely no way to explain it to her so she'd see the humour and not just feel badly to for me.

The one part of yesterday that was interesting was the actual flight. This is the first time I've flown since my surgery and didn't really think about how I'd feel. During the taxi out to the run way I started to feel kind of woozy. Then during take off (and landing later) with the plane moving around so much I started to feel really woozy and wobbly. It kind of was sensory overload. If there was a way I could have stopped the movement, I most certainly would have. Thankfully by the time we got airborne it got much better. I think that the difficultly for me is that my vision has to make up for my missing balance nerve and being in a "closed tube" with only a tiny window to look out of, I have nothing to visually focus on to steady my dizziness. By the time I landed in Calgary I was very woozy/wobbly. I was very glad I had decided to wear flat shoes as I had a bit of a difficult time staying on my feet. Thankfully I had luggage to help me steady myself. I have to say, as much as it's not a really nice feeling, I believe that when I experience these feelings it's all part of my brain adjusting and in the long run it will help. I also think that being pregnant and feeling so off balance will help speed up my recovery...only my thoughts nothing a doctor has confirmed.

In other news, my left eye has started to tear a little more. It's only in the morning and only after I sneeze. If I sneeze in the afternoon (I have slight allergies so I sneeze a bit) nothing happens, very weird. I still do have to use eye drops especially at night, but all of that has been pretty easy to adjust to...unless I forget my drops then it's really annoying to have to get out of the bed in the middle of the night to get them. Other good news is that with all 3 of my other pregnancies I would have at least 10-12 migraine headaches in my 1st trimester. So far I have only had 1, which has also been the only migraine since leaving the hospital. It really is so amazing to me. I've also been pretty much headache free since my surgery with the exception of a couple tension headaches, which happen to all of us.

That's all that is new with me. I will try really hard to not let so much time pass until my next post. Thanks to all of you for your support and prayers. Things are definitely progressing in the right direction and every time I get frustrated with my single-side deafness, I just have to think of all that has happened and how good I feel now compared to before the surgery and I feel incredibly grateful and blessed.