Friday, February 19, 2010
It's getting closer
So my surgery date is getting closer, and not just because time is passing. I got an e-mail today that there was a glitch with the scheduling system at Sunnybrook and now my date is moved up by 1 week. I now can look forward to March 22nd. It's strange because it means that I only have 4 more weeks of hearing in my left ear. But on the bright side, hopefully these weird headaches will also be over in 4 weeks. I know that my balance will be worse, but that will only get better as time passes. The 1 thing I haven't thought of for a while is the possibility of facial paralysis. It's the thing that I think bothers me the most and I actually do try to not think about it. But now that I have a date and is coming sooner I do need to prepare myself a little for the possibility. Dr. Chen said that based on the size of my tumour I only have a 25% chance of it and then even if I do have it after the surgery it might not be permanent. It's just so ugly that I really hope and pray I don't get it at all.
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Hi Ingrid,
ReplyDeleteI agree that the facial paralysis is scary. I know it was one of the hardest parts of my recovery. Remember it can take time to go away, but as long as they don't actually damage any nerves, it does get better...not always easy to remember when you're feeling freaky looking with an eye that needs help closing and only half a smile. But it does come back! Now I'm not nearly so freaky looking :):) Take care.
Kim
Congrats on getting bumped up a week! You're post reminded me of being pregnant, where when you are finally in labour-something you have been wishing fervently would happen-you suddenly realize what it was you were wishing for! It's very normal to have these feelings, and it sounds like you are handling this challenging time impressively.
ReplyDeletePlease don't fret about the 'what ifs' because this is wasted energy. God WILL give you the strength to bear what is placed on your path - He has promised and is faithful.
ReplyDeleteAnd I just want you to know that a man in our church who has full one sided facial paralysis has never been looked at as such. He is the most cheerful, upbeat, positive, caring individual you could know and is known as such. I find it very disheartening that a disability that one can 'see' is labeled as 'freaky' (comment above) Remember that, in God's eyes, it is not the outward appearance but the heart.
Praying that God will give you strength each step of the way.
Glad they moved it up for you!
ReplyDeletePraying that God may give you and your family
His strength and peace in this time of anxiousness and many unknowns.
"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed." says the LORD , who has compassion on you.